What If There Was No Tomorrow?

Over the weekend I was at a national leadership conference for my student organization.  There, I learned SO MUCH not only about leadership, but about myself.  We attended different programs all weekend long but one that taught me a life lesson was called What If There Was No Tomorrow?  I'm sure you can get a sense of what this program was about just from the title.  We were given scenarios and then were told to write down our reactions.  These reactions were passed around anonymously and read aloud for the group.  By doing this, I got a lot off of my chest without actually spilling my guts in front of a room full of strangers!  When we started this blog, we decided we were going to throw caution to the wind and just release everything we had been feeling in every post [and I think we have done a stellar job at doing so thus far haha] so I'm going to release a little more and I think you should too!

*Think back to a person you yelled at out of anger
*If tomorrow was your last day, would you handle it any differently?
*How well do you handle anger?
*What else would you let this person know?

        I would not handle the situation any differently.  As surprising as that sounds, I let off a lot of steam that had been built up for quite some time towards you.  I don't get angry very often but when someone hurts me, I act quite impulsively.  I'm sorry things went so sour when we attended college so far away from each other.  I miss you and I know you can do better than what you are doing and I will keep pushing you until you can see that as well.
      ....also, I used to sing Taylor Swift's song I'd Lie because I swore she wrote it for you and I ;)

Stay beautiful! xoxo

Out of the Building!

Reese and Leigh are gone for the weekend- at a conference and house sitting! Have a wonderful Memorial Day! Back on Monday :)

What I'm Loving Wednesday!

It's Wednesday! I don't have a button for it and I didn't link with anybody but I'm doing WILW anyways!

1. I'm loving that the sun is finally coming out! It rained every freaking day last week and it's rained every night this week. We are all so sick of the rain- and finally we get some sun!

2. I'm loving my new job at the office! I'm working weekends (tours and events) for a local parks and rec- and 4 days in the office for them as well. Yesterday was my first day and my brain was FRIED. I learned so much yesterday and I'm really getting the hang of things. I'm thinking I need some cute office supplies for my desk soon!

3. I'm loving that I ordered Jimmy Johns for lunch! I haven't gone grocery shopping in....a while and I think I basically have Naked juice and beer in my fridge haha. Obviously I need to start packing my lunch...but JJ is so close and so delicious.

4. I'm loving that I finally feel like I can just be ME! I'm so happy with myself lately...my body, my personality, my work, my accomplishments. I heard a quote that said- Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony. I finally feel like I'm there. Thank God!

5. I'm loving that I get to blog during work when my boss steps out of the office. Winning!

So-- what are you loving?! Tell me!

I Am Enough

Two of my favorite bloggers have talked about this same issue of...insecurity and confidence this past week and Andrea over at Can You Stay for Dinner? really hit a chord with me. One of her posts said "Does it really matter if I reveal my height, weight, race, gender...etc?" and then she said them. She. Said. Them. Who reveals information like that? She did. She is so brave to me.

It is so easy for me to think that I don't care about what I look like, or that my nose is too big, or that my hair isn't smooth enough, etc...but it's so much harder to actually NOT care. For so long I wanted so badly to be perfect, to be small, petite, little, toned, tight, tan, long, lean, itty-bitty and....fake. None of those things are who I am.

For the first time in a long time, today, I felt truly at peace with myself. I was driving in my car with music on, sun shining on my face, and smiling. Wearing only shorty shorts and a tank top, I wasn't worried about the winter weight I still haven't lost, my un-toned calves or lack of a 6 pack. My hair was blowing in the wind and that was okay. It's all okay.

A few days ago I was thinking to myself about all of my imperfections...and my flaws. My character weaknesses and problems. I thought "I could see why nobody would want to be with me. It would be hard." and then I remembered that...I am enough. Being smaller won't make someone love me. Hours at the gym won't make people appreciate me. A better butt won't make me prettier. And if someone couldn't be with me unless I was those things....then I don't want to be with them. I don't NEED to be with them. Because I am enough.

5' 2''. Female. White/Caucasian/Mexican/Native American/Irish/English/Scottish. 150#. Size 10. 8.5 shoe. Brunette.

The world will not be nicer to me if I am anything different than that above. Life will not go differently. People will not love me more or less. That is enough...I am enough.

Happy SUNday!

Lordy Bee!  It is so gorgeous outside today!  I cannot get over how much the sun just illuminates my entire day.  Mood, complexion, energy- everything!  I hope that everyone out there is having a great day.  Even if the sun is not shining your way, this is me sending a little love :) 

How great are friends?  I mean true friends.  The people who will be by your side when it feels like everyone else has walked out on you.  A lot of my friends from high school are going away for internships and whatnot this summer so it is a pretty rare to have everyone home at one time.  Last night was one of those times.  I had a blast just sitting around and chatting it up about life, school, work, everything.  You can really tell the people who will be around forever in your life by the conversation that is made when you have been apart for awhile.  Things will just, sort of, pick up where they left off and after having a good conversation you will feel good.  I smile just thinking about all of my great friends.  I hope all of you have these people in your life! 

Last night came with a reconnection of sorts as well and so I'm going to give you a little challenge blog world.  Go find someone who you once were very close with and for some reason just fell out of touch with.  Go ahead and think for a second...ok...got it?!  Now go find them!  With so many social medias and the internet, there are no more excuses!  It will make you feel better, trust me.  Even if the conversation isn't that great, you will feel better knowing that you made an effort and hopefully another friend!

Enjoy the sunshine [if you have it]!  Be brave!  Be exciting!  Be daring!  xoxo

Saturday Thoughts

I just have a lot of little things on my mind...and no one to really tell or just chat with so...I'm turning to all of you. I know you listen. And will respond. Grab a cup of coffee first, it's still early.

1. I am so far in over my head with this new job of mine. I was TOLD it was a weekend position planning events for my local parks and rec. At the meeting with my boss yesterday she asked if I wanted to work FOUR days in the office a week. Um, by the way, I already nanny in the mornings and in the afternoons. I'm not complaining about the job- I know I'm going to love it...but I CAN'T do it all and it's so overwhelming trying to juggle three jobs and please everyone all the time.  For the record...this will be- a family of 5, a family of 4, and the entire city I live in that I have to make happy. Ahem.

2. Why is sunshine so wonderful? I woke up at 6:30-630! this morning and it was just so sunny and I could already feel it was a little warm. It's finally stopped raining here and that makes me so happy. The grass outside is bright green and I can hear birds chirping. Spring is finally here- which means summer is on its way! 

3. I got a spray tan yesterday. Not a Mystic Tan- a spray tan. I stood in a booth as naked as the day I was born...and a person- a real live person sprayed me with freezing cold DHA-infused liquid. It's obviously the darkest it's going to be today...so I'm looking a little Jersey-fab. Also, I'm giving tours at work today so a lot of people are going to get to see my Jersey fab-ness. You aren't allowed to shower for 24 hours (1pm- I am counting!) and I seriously feel grody. Is that TMI? I bet you all didn't want to know all that. Sorry. Kindof.

4. Has anyone done Jillian Michaels DVD's? I quit going to the gym because I was spending 35 bucks a week to drive to a different city and work out...it was getting so expensive! As it turns out- you can't stop working out and keep the 'working out' bod. I'm thinking Jillian Michaels and some weekly jogs around my neighborhood are definitely in order.

Have a beautiful day, loves. 
XO

It's The Little Things

Since our last post was a little heavy and maybe controversial, I just wanted to share this with you. Sometimes we (read: I) get so caught up with life, work, school, friends, relationships, drama, growing up, etc, etc...that we forget to appreciate the little things that make us happy.  I just found this website via Makeup Hope  and I love it!

 I love knowing that I worked hard and got things done before I go to sleep at night!

 Summer, anyone?

 I'm perfecting my skill.

All images courtesy of Just Little Things.